don't look so surprised
Jul. 1st, 2023 03:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
somedayseattleMy body has betrayed me most of my life. I was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism at 12. I was treated with radioactive iodine a year later. Turns out the doctors overdosed me by about 10X. It was an experimental treatment & the right dosages had not really been solidified. When I was 20 it was discovered my thyroid had died from the radiation. Shriveled up like a raisin. Subsequent investigations revealed Grave's Disease and Hashimito's Disorder. My case was considered extreme and it took literally years of dosage changes before my meds actually helped. I ballooned up to 333 pounds. I have lost well over 100 of that. I lost hair. Lost memory. Initiative, will to live...all that shit. Now that I am older I am dealing with all the shitty small things piling up. That's monumentally worse.
As of this morn.....
-the bottom of my feet are slightly swollen
-the toes on both feet are crampy and sore
-The 'Itis in the right knee is acting up (the left knee, which got pretty beaten up during Da Holiday Thang, is finally feeling better
-right hip hurts due a long running sciatic issue
-i have a goddamn rash under my armpit
- a week ago i cut my fingernail too close and ripped out the cuticle. It got swollen, red and sensitive
-I trimmed my fingernails yesterday and did the same thing to the finger next to one i effed up last week.
JFC. Yesterday my left eye was feeling a little sensitive. I woke up today to it being red, sensitive and swollen. Great. Just great.
Did a morning train shift. A sunny summer Saturday means it is going to be busy and my dumb ass looks like I was on the wrong end of bar fight. I committed to not take off my sunglasses at all today. Toward the end of the shift JayCobb sauntered up to the gate as the last person left the station and i absentmindedly removed my shades to clean them. JayCobb noticed he swelling & asked what was going on. I pretended to be a cheerleader and cast my arms into the air.
"A cyst!
A stie!
There's something in my eye!
Gooooooooooo, train!!"
I curtsied and walked to the other end of the platform. JayCobb eventually made it down to our end.
J-"Were you dropped on your head when you were a kid?"
me-"If by dropped you mean repeatedly picked up & flung into a wall like an old Frisbee, perhaps."
Jay shook his head and scuffled away silently.
As of this morn.....
-the bottom of my feet are slightly swollen
-the toes on both feet are crampy and sore
-The 'Itis in the right knee is acting up (the left knee, which got pretty beaten up during Da Holiday Thang, is finally feeling better
-right hip hurts due a long running sciatic issue
-i have a goddamn rash under my armpit
- a week ago i cut my fingernail too close and ripped out the cuticle. It got swollen, red and sensitive
-I trimmed my fingernails yesterday and did the same thing to the finger next to one i effed up last week.
JFC. Yesterday my left eye was feeling a little sensitive. I woke up today to it being red, sensitive and swollen. Great. Just great.
Did a morning train shift. A sunny summer Saturday means it is going to be busy and my dumb ass looks like I was on the wrong end of bar fight. I committed to not take off my sunglasses at all today. Toward the end of the shift JayCobb sauntered up to the gate as the last person left the station and i absentmindedly removed my shades to clean them. JayCobb noticed he swelling & asked what was going on. I pretended to be a cheerleader and cast my arms into the air.
"A cyst!
A stie!
There's something in my eye!
Gooooooooooo, train!!"
I curtsied and walked to the other end of the platform. JayCobb eventually made it down to our end.
J-"Were you dropped on your head when you were a kid?"
me-"If by dropped you mean repeatedly picked up & flung into a wall like an old Frisbee, perhaps."
Jay shook his head and scuffled away silently.