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May. 18th, 2023 04:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
somedayseattleBig thanks to all who have reached out over the last 24 hours. I cannot properly describe how much you all mean to me.
I knew Da Younga Sista had a rough Tuesday night, staying with MeMum after the rest of us had left. So yesterday morning I texted her. It was fluff as I just wanted to make her laugh a little. We texted for about 25 minutes and then she called me. In classic Younga Sista style she started the conversation with “I won’t keep you long because I know how much you hate phones.” Then we talked for almost 90 minutes. Mom, life as adults, the universe is & anything else that popped in our collective minds. I knew that she was going to see Mom towards the end of her day and we were going to speak again. Around 8:30 she called. She and J-Nic had just left the hospital. She said they had gone to mom‘s room and she was curled up in the fetal position. They both read her good news stories from the internet. Mom eventually came to and gave Sista a smile. Then she got Alzheimer’s combative. Trying to pull the IV out of her arms, fighting with the nurses etc. They eventually had to sedate her so she would stop being such a nuisance. Sista and J-Nic split at that point. Sista said her hands were no longer blue and she was not as cold as an icicle. Proof that her heart was pumping a little better than it had been a scant 24 hours earlier. The doctors haven’t found any blockage so she may have moved past this incident.
I am not religious on any level. I don’t necessarily ponder the existence of god or satan or heaven or hell. I consider myself an agnostic as opposed to an atheist. I don’t completely discount the possibility of there being something other than our time on this earth. It’s not that I don’t believe in those things it’s that I don’t give a shit. Whether or not there is god does not change my day today operations. But situations like this definitely doesn’t sway my opinion to the religious side. If there is someone running the universe where the fuck is the mercy? Why would you do this to her only for her to make it through and go back to her shitty Alzheimer’s life? If you’re in charge of the universe why haven’t you ended this? My mother did not deserve to end up like this. No one does but everyday someone's life is destroyed by a dementia or Alzheimers diagnosis. A lot of you have been through this. A loved one is diagnosed and everyone who loved him/her suffers watching the decline. Sorry...going to have a hard time believing in your god if this kind of shit continues.
I knew Da Younga Sista had a rough Tuesday night, staying with MeMum after the rest of us had left. So yesterday morning I texted her. It was fluff as I just wanted to make her laugh a little. We texted for about 25 minutes and then she called me. In classic Younga Sista style she started the conversation with “I won’t keep you long because I know how much you hate phones.” Then we talked for almost 90 minutes. Mom, life as adults, the universe is & anything else that popped in our collective minds. I knew that she was going to see Mom towards the end of her day and we were going to speak again. Around 8:30 she called. She and J-Nic had just left the hospital. She said they had gone to mom‘s room and she was curled up in the fetal position. They both read her good news stories from the internet. Mom eventually came to and gave Sista a smile. Then she got Alzheimer’s combative. Trying to pull the IV out of her arms, fighting with the nurses etc. They eventually had to sedate her so she would stop being such a nuisance. Sista and J-Nic split at that point. Sista said her hands were no longer blue and she was not as cold as an icicle. Proof that her heart was pumping a little better than it had been a scant 24 hours earlier. The doctors haven’t found any blockage so she may have moved past this incident.
I am not religious on any level. I don’t necessarily ponder the existence of god or satan or heaven or hell. I consider myself an agnostic as opposed to an atheist. I don’t completely discount the possibility of there being something other than our time on this earth. It’s not that I don’t believe in those things it’s that I don’t give a shit. Whether or not there is god does not change my day today operations. But situations like this definitely doesn’t sway my opinion to the religious side. If there is someone running the universe where the fuck is the mercy? Why would you do this to her only for her to make it through and go back to her shitty Alzheimer’s life? If you’re in charge of the universe why haven’t you ended this? My mother did not deserve to end up like this. No one does but everyday someone's life is destroyed by a dementia or Alzheimers diagnosis. A lot of you have been through this. A loved one is diagnosed and everyone who loved him/her suffers watching the decline. Sorry...going to have a hard time believing in your god if this kind of shit continues.